Missy,
I have read a lot of your recent posts, and if nothing changes nothing changes. I don't want this to come across as negative, but altering the way you count days or what you drink at the bar (where you have gone before to get drunk) has never worked for me or any others that I know. I just hope that you find what you need to make true changes on your path to recovery. I was always told by my fellow alcoholics and my father who has been sober for many years, that when I was looking in the mirror I was looking at the problem and that until I changed my outlook and attitude in life my problem would always remain. Best of luck.