I'm glad you got away. I admire the strength that must have taken for you to leave.
My AH has told me countless times he's "hit bottom" then it seems like the hole is getting deeper.
I am generally a fun person to be around. I have spent all this energy worrying and it has gotten me nowhere.
I start to get independent and then AH starts to get a little better which gives me brief hope.
I'm going to find an alanon meeting and a counselor. If the boards are so much help just by reading, then Alanon might help me feel more grounded.
Thanks so much for saying what I needed to hear.