Good evening all, I missed my morning post today my shopping delivery arrived early and I was still in bed reading the posts that had been put while I slept then by the time I put the shopping away I got busy doing other things and now the day is over and im back in bed.
Bit of an up and down day but I havent contemplated having a drink. Its popped into my mind a few times but I was in no danger. Last night I was out for a family meal, again no danger as I was driving and my family are supportive of my current position and very much want me to succeed but Saturdays so far seem to be the most tempting days for me. I was looking at the people in the restaurant with their bottles of wine or beer and I did feel a bit envious of them but I just have to get on with and realise that whilst they can probably enjoy their drink at that moment in time I would end up being miserable eventually if I tried to recapture that moment.
Went to a meeting today, it was ok, not the best, I was a bit late, flustered, clumsy, spilled some of my coffee on someone, was in some pain and discomfort (physical stuff which will be gone in a day or two) but the lady who I want to be my sponsor was there and afterwards we had a chat and she is going to do it for me we will start working the steps in a couple of weeks when she returns from a holiday. In the meantime I am to ring her everyday so that will start tomorrow. So it was definatley a good thing I went to the meeting. No matter what happens I always get something from the meetings - usually quite alot. There was a girl there who clearly is starting out - she smelled of drink (maybe from the previous night), was shaking badly and crying alot. I wished her well and saw that another lady gave her her telephone number. She left pretty quick after the meeting I am unsure if I should have tried to speak to her more but Im also a bit wary of connecting with someone who is still in trouble as I am so early into it I think someone with more experience would be more helpful and I worry I may put myself in danger as its impossible to tell if she was there from her own free will etc - im feeling a bit bad about it now if I see her again I will definately offer her support.
After the meeting I was drained and went for a lie down and then woke 2 hours later! I am now blaming the lack of weight loss on the fact that I am sleeping so much. I guess it will balance out in time.
During dinner I felt a crack in my mouth and a chunk of tooth has fallen out so I will have to get to the dentist in the morning. Im really not too pleased about that I have become more and more dentist phobic as I get older.
Still I havent fancied a drink today so all in all its been a good day and tomorrow I can say Ive not had a drink for a fortnight which is a first since I was about 13 years old!!! In fact I can say it now as I had finished my last drink by about 8pm two Sundays ago so hoorah!!!!
Well Im now gonna read some more on here then a chapter of my sleazy novel then a few paragraphs of the big book, a little prayer and then my new hobby - sleep!
Goodnight all, have a great sober day/night where ever you are.
PS x