Preg - Two days is better than no days. Lots of great tasting non-alkie drinks out there. You're absolutely right. Just think how much better your insides are doing without being pickled by booze! I hope people can give you the support you need stop putting you down when just you're being yourself. Why should you have to be fun for them? Its up to them if they want to feel like they are enjoying you or not. Can't they just enjoy you for you, not for who you are when you've had a few?
No Tears, I see what you're still struggling with. It is not easy, that's for da*n sure! But we all know its the way to survive and live a healthy life. I can't imagine trying to balance meds in the midst of this. So, my heart goes out to all of you trying to do that. Maybe that makes my sobriety easier cause I don't have the detox part of it or the meds for other issues going on too. The smell of the booze you dumped out making you gag is something I can relate to. For some reason it makes me think of that Bogie line, "Of all the gin joints in all the world, she walks into mine." Not sure why that is, but it makes me think of the way bars smell like layers of barf covered up by layers of booze. Its pretty sickening whenever I think about it. So, maybe a little hypnotic suggestion to smell that smell whenever you think about having a drink will help resist the voice that says, "Go ahead just one will help relieve the stress, help you blend in with the crowd, help you get over the blues, help you....yada yada yada. SHUT UP VOICE! I'm smelling the truth.
Pumpkin, I found out Bogie wrote another line, "All the world is three drinks behind." Yeah, that's so true for me. I know I am only three drinks behind falling right back into where I was. If Bogie was an alcoholic, and I think he was, then he knew all the rest of us in recovery were just three drinks away from being right back in the ditch again. That's a sobering thought.
3 Steeds, It is so hard to hear about the spouse who seems to be messing with your head while you're so vulnerable and trying so hard. She's obviously sick in her own way, so you've gotta rise above it and look at it the light of she needs help too for whatever it is ailing her...and maybe you're not the one who can give it to her...so all you can do is look at her as a sick person, like the Big Book says, and then it won't be gnawing at you. Pray for her that does come to realize she needs help and finds a way to get it. Sounds like you had a great day with the boys. So, count that as a plus. Keep working the program and no amount of cr*p that comes at you is going to hurt as bad as you hurt yourself when you're pouring all that booze into your system. Hope this helps 3Steeds. I know it hurts and you're worried about what you might lose. Don't worry, be happy. To drink is to die, and you can't be with your boys then.
CatFry and BeenDown2, I love reading all about you and your posts too. Thanks for all the encouragement and checking in now and then. We got a great group going. I hope we can all hang together for as long as it takes. We need each other.
What an odd thing to admit about people I don't even really know. I do know the one thing I need to know about you. Like me, you are powerless over alcohol and your lives are unmanageable without working this program to stay sober. I'm glad to be sharing this road with you. We don't know where we're going, but its gotta be better than where we been! Heading into Week 3 ..... cranking it wide open!