Hi DWD - I can relate totally....!
I don't think I ever enjoyed socializing without alcohol. With a drink, it was easier to be that person, but it's not really me. Some people are that way - they want to chit-chat about everything and have people around all the time.
I honestly don't think one is better than the other.
It's OK to be who you are. You don't have to be what you think everyone else expects you to be. I think it's great that you're getting to know yourself - a lot of people never do.
Thanks for the post!!!!