Originally Posted by Alone22

You need Alanon.. please go to a meeting as soon as you can! Read everything you can on being codependent and alcoholism. You deserve better and you are not crazy. Who would not be irritated with a partner that spent all his free time drinking, smoking and playing xbox (hell it sounds like my AH, but he isn't smoking pot at this point). They are angry with themselves and they lash out on the closest person to them (us). As the illness progresses the their thoughts and actions become more and more crazy. We get sucked in because we love them. They give us just enough hope to keep hanging on. Then one day we just can't take it anymore and want to find some peace. That is where alanon comes in.