Chickory,
A good friend of mine told me the other day what fear means:
False
Expectations
Appearing
Real
Truth is, you won't know what will happen to him when you turn him out until you open the gate and take the halter off. He'll find his way, the way his HP has already planned for him. What that path entails is a mystery to all of us. Only God knows, and He ain't telling.
When you're ready, you're ready... try not to beat yourself up too much. I just want what's best for you, and want you to be happy. Keep coming back, we're always here for you!