Chicory, I've heard it said that courage isn't an absence of fear. It's facing the fear, and doing the next right thing
in spite of the fear.
I have felt fear many times in my recovery over the years. I have made decisions based on fear, and that ultimately blew up in my face.
But you know what? I learned from those times.
You're not on a time table dear, none of us are.
I just know God's got some really big hands, and when I find myself afraid, I place all that fear smack dab in the middle of his hands.
Gentle hugs to you on the Kansas winds.