Have you read the stickie "What addicts do?" It's harsh but it's no lie.
Speed sucks the humanity out of you. I hate to see you put yourself through that. It's a horrible life to choose - trying to save a speed addict. You'll waste your life in the process.
Read all you can here on this website and pick up a copy of codendent no more.
And remember this:
You didn't cause it.
You can't control it.
You can't cure it.
You are in charge of your own life only. And you can't get time back, once it's gone.