Hi,
Thanks for your kind replies, it really means a lot to be welcomed in such a short time, i actually convinced myself no one would bother reply or would all look at at it tell me am pathetic and ask me to leave.
1undone, i do have some major anxiety issues making it increasingly difficult to leave my house because of this most of my relationships with friends and family have broke down and working has become very difficult. I didn't want this but i realize a lot of what has happened now i did to myself because i never dealt with things, with painful feelings and memories, i hid behind alcohol and pretended to the world and me i was ok.If you ever need someone to talk to message me and maybe we can help each other?
And thank you Hevyn am glad your doing a lot better it takes a strong person to manage that.
Thanks
Lila x