The thing is it's been 10 mos. It has sucked most of the time BUT I can say a RAH is easier to deal with than a AH. For ME at least.
Now I can't imagine living the way we had been. I am seriously stuck at the 3rd step. I am stuck in my guilt and anger over allowing my life to be taken from me.
This week has been super stressful w/ Finals and my RAH is playing his martyr game again and I'm expected to drop everything and soothe his ego. I'm just not doing it.
I have other things that need done.
So....have I ever heard of a happy ending?
Not to many to be honest.
To me....well I just think I've done my time. 20 yrs w/ a AH is plenty. I'm going on 1 yr w/ my RAH, and while they don't compare...I know that I'm just fed up w/ the drama and crap that comes along with this disease.
I want MY SERENITY!!!!!!!!!
I want to know that there won't be a new drama daily.
I need to feel comfortable in my own house.
I graduate in August...I will despite the trauma/drama and then I need to decide.
I know if I continue in school I HAVE to leave. He damn near broke me this semester w/ all his drama crap, there is no way I want to even TRY to do that again.
AGGGGGH!
I just wish it were easy.
