My RAH texted me not even an hour ago saying he didn't know what was going on with me lately and that I seemed unhappy and it's affecting him now so I need to do something about it....
I guess he missed the memo.
Alnon is teaching me...to be responsible for ME. How I feel. My actions.
so I'm proud to say I'm a quitter today!!!!
He's just ticked off that he's not the center of my universe and that his drama's WILL not affect how I live my life. I won't get pulled in. I have no answers for him. Even in recovery he is undependable and difficult unless he is the center of attention ALL the time. It's hard to even raise my kids because he is literally stealing the attention and time from them.
Does this mean I want to continue my marriage? I don't think so but I'm not 'there' yet.
For now I'm going to my meetings. I'm going to school, work and caring for my kids.
I'm doing everything that I'm supposed to do and still making time for MY needs.
So....
I Quit worrying about :how HE feels about my feelings
I Quit worrying about : how he feels about my ACTIONS
I Quit worrying about his drama's
I quit worrying about his anger, dissappointment or resentments.
I won't quit on MYSELF.