but now my mind is going crazy because I can't stop worrying that he might do both now. It is so hard to not worry because I care about him and love him greatly.
I am so sorry you are going through this. I relate too well as my AH has the same issues. I spent countless nights worrying about him, just like this. It made me sick...I was often completely exhausted from it, having to work and take care of kids. But what I have learned is that no amount of worrying is going to change the outcome! He will use whether you worry or not. That is where you have to learn how to let go. It is sooo hard to do, but worth it. By letting go and not worrying about him, you shift the focus on to yourself and you can take care of your own needs better. Hang in there.