Also , towards the end it almost feels like perhaps you left with the idea of forcing him to change and now you are hurting because he hasn't ? If that's the case , then it's going to be a lose/lose situation I believe. If you aren't truly finished and done and out of love and ready to move on then you will continue to hurt when he doesn't change.
I honestly never thought of it like that, and that is why i love this place. Thank you....
I left because he was becoming physically abusive. Which was very scary because I can actually, recount every incident where his drunken behavior progressed each time, into a very early morning argument that led me to leave. And to where we are now.