Lips, if she left because you did not drink anymore, she is NOT considering your welfare or health, both mental and physical....that is just selfish and unsupportive.
sometimes, you have to consider why that kind of a relationship is so appealing to you.
be kind to yourself, get some sleep.....come back later.
i'm not here most of the day (it's my mother's wake today), but i'll be back at some point. feel free to PM to me if you like, i'll get back to you...right now it's 10:15AM in my time zone.