XA-Speakers - The lights are on!
Click on this link, download from the top, and just listen. It's the Sandy B tapes. Thsi speaker has helped me SOOOO MUCH. Every bit as much, if not more, than Joe and Charlie. I think you'll really find them helpful.
Also, I would strongly suggest a workshop. I'm in two right now and they are so much more helpful than meetings with regards to actually discussing the 12 steps.
Remember, we "get it", by "doing it". My journey in step work has shown me that over time, I understand them so much better. In other words, the evolve in me, over time. By working with a sponsor, going to meetings, doing workshops, talking to others, and listening to these recovery tapes, my understanding / acceptance has grown so much.
Just jump in head first man! Sobriety is literally just sitting there waiting for you to go get it. Like the book says, "drop the rock" and just get after it!!!!