Well, you have US... And we care about you. And if you went to al-anon, you'd find a room full of real, live, in the flesh people who would care about you too!!!
I understand right where you are... Keeping reaching out... YOU ARE NOT ALONE!! Going to him for emotional support is a waste of your time and energy. He is just not in a place right now to give that to you. He's a hardware store right now, and you're looking for bread... But you won't find it where you keep looking!!