Thumper

Aww - no you don't.

He's taking up all the space in your head. It doesn't matter what he drank today, or last summer.

You have your reality and you know what you know and the gift in the midst of all this pain of letting go of your dream is that you no longer have to think about it. Alcoholism, deception, drinks, etc. There is no reason to.

Let that soak in for a minute because it was huge for me. I no longer had to think about it. Even now, over a year later, I can remember the feeling of the clouds parting and the sun shining down with that realization.