Hi Sylvrymoon, It is a hard process but, I agree, when we do it the way suggested it works so much better. I have a real problem with that also. I don't know why I have a problem with people telling me what to do. I know they are right but, in the past I always thought I had a better way. I like you and others ended up in the same or worse position. Eveyone has been telling me to go to AA. I don't want to but, I am doing it anyway. I have to force myself to stay for the whole meeting. I am also like I hope Wendy and others following Pernell's and others advice. I am happy that you are doing good. It shows me that their way works mine don't. I hope I have also had my last drunk and also am concerned about running out of recoveries. I better hold on to this one. Have a good day. Don W