Thanks pickle, I am going to change and get involved with my recovery. I am going with AA. I was responding to Wendy's question about one more good drunk. In a way I really needed to see it in print. In my case there are no more good drunks and hasn't been for a long time. I agree about the comparing. The other night while out drinking I talked to a homeless man. I talked to him, bought him a sandwich and told him to have faith,I use to spend time on the street and look at me I made it off. What a joke, I proceeded to get drunk and fall home. The fact is he and I are the same, I just have a home. I am going to get better, I just need to be honest about where I am. And I was hoping Wendy see the hoplessness of that last good drunk. Have a good 24. I am doing OK. Don W