goingtodoit

I did day 1!!! Me and my husband cooked dinner together, but he struggled with my emotions. I understand that he thinks it's a case of "just stopping", but I have tried to explain things to him. At the same time as explaining to him I am admitting things to myself that I don't like to, that hurt, that make me not like the person I have become.
Today has been a bit better. I have completed an assignment on a course I took up to try to distract me from drinking a couple of months ago....it will eventually lead to me earning money from home and working for myself. I am hoping to focus more on that as time goes on. But little steps.
I am quite low today emotionally though, not because I haven't drunk or miss it, but because I am facing up to who I was, the mistakes I made, the people I hurt. I also fear the change in my life as much as I acknowledge it has to happen - my group of friends is very sociable and I know I will miss that side of my life when it took me so long, so very very long, to find a good group of friends I could be myself with. Or perhaps I wasn't myself.....things get blurred sometimes I suppose.
Off to a BBQ now, but feeling positive. Fingers crossed!