Originally Posted by
Babyblue 
It is especially hard when they are FUN and loving drunks. I sometimes think I liked my BF better drunk then the guilt eats at me. I almost feel ashamed to write it. It is the illogical nature of the disease. We who get sucked up in the crazy and them who are unable to stop until they've self destruct.
Thanks for you honesty. Don't hide it ever. It has to come out for you to really work on healing and recovery.
Thank-you, babyblue.
Yes...I like him better drunk. He's warmer, more loving. He can be cold and calculating when sober, to the extreme. He's an A type egotistical power person, is why.
Thank-you for telling me to finally be honest. This is the first truly open post I have posted here...to this degree.
And...as predictable as alcoholics are...yes...
after asking for reconciliation, he is non-committal. Surprised?
We had our talk, and I called his bluff, and he dropped the ball.
Now that makes me feel like I'm a puppet, or an ego boost!
I'll tell him. Yes, time to assert myself.
"You dropped the ball, not good enough". That takes puppet out of the equation. Not sure it takes ego boost out of it though.
Then, like always these days, back to numero uno...as I'm so often taught here.