Good Morning,
I see two options now:
Kick yourself all day and think about all the wrongs, and watch the scale continue to lean towards his taking, taking, taking
OR
Forgive yourself. Learn from this experience.
Let go of the Alcoholic and give him to your HP, and then
make the rest of your day be about your future serenity.
I recommend the second option.
No need to let the Alcoholic take up more space in your head.
I also recommend Alanon and self-improvement books.
I wanted instant answers to my situation with my alcoholic husband.
I needed answers, NOW!
What I realized, however, was that I did not arrive in the situation overnight; and it was going to take more than one meeting/night to get myself out of the drama of alcoholism.
I also learned to love myself, forgive myself for mistakes, and move forward from the experience.
Peace to you as you continue to recover