Barelyhere, I'm not going to tell u to leave ur husband. But I realized a long time ago that if ur unhappy or depressed then something NEEDS to change. Ive been through it all to well. He wouldn't change so I had to. being unhappy all the time not only effects u but everyone around u that cares. It eventually broke me down. My mind, spirit, and body. Since I made the change I'm in a much better place. Best wishes for u going through ur journey cj