Welcome to SR.......I'm glad you found us. The good news? You can't see us! You don't know whether we're your age or not! lol And the other good news? We understand what you're dealing with because all of us also love someone who is addicted. There are a lot of people here who are willing to share their experience, strength and hope. You are not alone.
If you don't want to attend f2f meetings, do you like to read? There are some excellent resources out there that can help you deal with the emotions and behaviors associated with codependency. Most of us who love an addict become embroiled in the dance of the disease and understanding the dynamics can be very helpful.
I hope you stick around. SR is a wonderful place that has helped me regain my sanity and find my "peaceful place".
gentle hugs
ke