I was where you are at now. My entire life revolved around drinking. I thought everyone drank like I did, but they didn't. Booze was my favorite companion until it turned on my and my life started going down the tube.
When the consequences become dire, you will want to stop and the thought of never drinking again will not be in the forefront. We push it, and push it some more until we are in deep trouble. You reach a point where you will do anything to stop drinking, forever. There was a time where I couldn't imagine a life without drinking. Now, I can't imagine a life with it.
There is a solution and you can find it. It takes time, willingness, and effort. You can do this, but you have to figure out how badly you want this. Don't wait until the consequences are worse than they are now and it is to late to fix matters.