Karivan

Hi everyone. I've been depressed since coming to this board and while it really helps to know I'm not alone, I'm depressed. I was trying to reason it out and I realized! I'm depressed because now I'm facing the issue. I'm not in denial about my A anymore. It's depressing because I can't be a codie, I can't control anything, I can't be angry anymore. All my props have been taken away. And while it's freeing, it hurts. I don't know how else to explain it.

I found out there is a Al-Anon meeting down the street from my house on Monday evenings so I'm going to start going this week. I need to learn how to follow the steps and handle this without trying to take care of him. I've read quite a few posts from codies and realized that I am one. I may have contributed to his low self esteem by taking charge of everything because, of course, only I know how to do it right. I feel like such an idiot. :banghead:

Thanks for listening.