Welcome Jstar....after you start thinking about it clearly it does come across as aleetle obsessive in the booze department. No?
People that don't have a problem don't hide it. Period. I used to keep a 'bait' bottle on the counter but had more hidden. Hehe Then no one knew how much I was "really" consuming. Then I switched to ''box wine' because no one could 'see' how much was gone.
I always jumpstarted myself before going anywhere -to tutor at school, to go grocery shopping, school functions...even the morning of my wedding of my second marraige.
I, too, have 4 kids....I know.
So hopefully, here you can gain some insight, knowledge, strenghth, clarity, self-awareness...glad you're here.
I (personally speaking) think this is a good place for you, but you have to make that decision on your own!