It's crazy to say this (or maybe it isn't) but I feel like the stronger I feel I am getting the degree to which he tries to suck me back in also increases....
I'd had a great al anon meeting, have felt good all week, all weekend, much of last week etc...
I've continued to limit my interaction with him whenever possible not bc I don't care or love him but bc when I am with him I find I can only care about one of us and it's not me; and that's all my responsibility to deal with- not his... But of course he has taken it as abandonment.
H has been diagnosed with BPD as well I think I might have mentioned so it's like there are sooooo many things at play here--