BenRadBel

So here it goes. Since my AH went behind my back and told his ex wife we are separated and he is in AA for 6 mths (lie) it's been like 3 weeks - maybe 5 meetings, when we sat down with the attorney for the custody hearing over my step daughter, it comes out that he is an A and we are separated. I had no freaking clue that he would have told her that! I could have crawled under the table and died!!

So, he preceeds to leave and be pissed at his ex. I'm in shock that he was that stupid! Especially when he tried to deny it to the attorney and the attorney showed him the text messages! So 1. I am upset for him calling his ex wife with our material issues (which has happened in the past) and 2 for not letting me know he told her and get blind sided by embarrassement AGAIN!

I had nothing nice to say to him so did not speak from Friday until tonight when I got weak. I texted him if he wanted to talk and he stated he wasn't in a good mood. So I said ok. Then he precedes to tell me that since I haven't wanted to speak to him, nor spend any time with his daughter this weekend then he guesses I am too busy putting myself first.

That's what I get for not sticking to my recovery. I picked up the Language of Letting Go for March 27th - Afterburn and thought dang! Wish I would have read that before my weakness hit!! Just shows me he is not in recovery, he is not "getting it". Trying to make me feel like the guilty one when it's his disease and his laziness that started this crap!

So mad! I need warmer weather so I can get outside, get some Vitamin D and get my mind on track! I'm gonna stick to this 90 days, 60 more to go...