Oh, Callie. I am so sorry for what you've been going through. Your post hit so many common threads with me. I'm so glad that you were able to push him off you, I'm so sad that you had to. The DV resources have been so helpful. I was terrified when I called: they wouldn't believe me, the abuse hadn't been 'bad enough', they'd judge me for staying with him for so long.... None of my fears about the DV resources were founded and they have been amazing. There's so much help available. When you're ready, please call to talk with them. Your plan to call from some place other than home is excellent.
Wishing you continued strength, hope and peace. You are so much stronger than you know. Hugs for you and DS.