MsPINKAcres

As most of you know we are now raising our granddaughter ~ which is a blessing ~ She has been with us full time for about 6 weeks . . .

BUT a six year old, working 2 jobs, (one of which I have over an hour commute one way) and keeping up a household - is a busy busy life.

A typical day starts out at 3:45 am, up & at 'em, make the coffee, get dressed, make-up, etc.; wake up K , Mr. Pink Acres takes over supervising her getting dressed, breakfast, etc, & dropping her off to his oldest son's house for her to get to school, I leave the house by 4:40 am to get to work for 6 am,

work 10 hr day ~ drive an hour, pick up K, get home usually by 6:15, fix supper, do homework, try to wash a load of clothes, clean up the kitchen,

Mr. PINK Acres & K take care of her nitely reading while I get her clothes out for school the next morning, fix lunches for us, get my clothes ready for work,

Get her showered, then I take mine & try to get her to bed for 8:30 ish -

Then try to get myself to bed at least by 10 ~ and start all over again at 3:45 then next morning

Now of course it's Tax Season - so throw in a Fri & Sat working along with those 4 10 hr days & you can imagine how exhausted I am!

As I sat today at work - I thought I love this little girl so much - but oh my how am I going to do this - I am so exhausted I am not even thinking straight. . .

How are we ever going to be able to do this?
I prayed this morning
"Dear God - please am I doing enough, is this the right thing? She is just as tired as we are!!! Are we really making it better? Is this really helping?"

AND GOD ANSWERED!

He prompted Jason to post ~ I remembered reading his post about the life he and Kirby lived through; about how they have struggled and overcame . . .
and then I REMEMBERED. . .

God provided Mr. Pink & I a way to protect K from what Jason & Kirby went through ~ She can still interact with her Dad but under healthy circumstances. She has the pain of the lost of her Mom which will be 2 yrs ago on Saturday - but she doesn't have to live with the active disease 24/7 ~ she will recover from the loss of a few hours sleep & SO WILL I!!!

So, we will be tired, the beds will be unmade, the house will look a little messy and maybe we will have another corndog with easymac for supper instead of a healthy 4 or 5 course meal ~ but we will be safe, we will be clean, we will get MOST of the homework done and we will be LOVED!!

Did I ever mention that I have the best life ever - I have HUGE circles under my eyes & no make-up now that I have cried it all off today ?

But thanks again Jason for reminder of why we are doing what we are doing -

Because NO child should have to live in a house with active addiction/alcoholism ~ it slowly kills their self-esteem, self-worth & self-love - I remember I lived in that house!

I LOVE SR ~ so Grateful that my HP uses it to give me exactly what I need!

PINK HUGS to all from messy but full of Love - PINK Acres!
Rita