Thank you all, so much. It really does help to know that other people are going through, or have been through, the same thing...I think it helps me realize I'm human and this is really not uncommon. Serious, disturbing, dangerous...but not uncommon.
I think, hope and pray that that episode was bad enough to make me *really* stop...not just for a week or a month until I feel better. But to help me *remember*, down in the pit of my stomach, how I felt yesterday (and still, to some extent, today...I've only been able to eat a little in the past few hours) the next time I'm feeling "bored" and think "just a glass" wouldn't be a problem...it is, it would and it will always be a problem.
Y'all's good people, as we say in the South. :-)