Thank you again everyone for all of your posts. It's so good to know there are people out there who understand.
Yesterday I consulted with an attorney & made an appointment for a chemical dependency evaluation. I felt a lot better yesterday, but today I'm in pieces. I don't know why I just turned the corner all of a sudden. I've just felt like crying all day, can't stop looking back at what happened instead of forward to how I'm going to change things. I keep analyzing myself & what "kind of person" I am. I feel like a little kid.
My girls are coming home tomorrow & will be with me for 5 days, but I just don't feel ready for their energy...man this is a crappy feeling. I hope I can get my thinking in order, because I know that's what's bringing me down today. It's all up to me, but it's so hard.