Thanks for the responses....I'm hoping a nice hot bath and a good night's sleep will help me see things in a brighter light tomorrow. Jamaica-I thought the same thing, that it IS a gift of sorts that he'll be gone for the next couple of weeks...the finality of it all just hit me much harder than I expected today.
I'm looking forward to genuinely laughing again (heck, even smiling!) and discovering the new and improved version of "me". I have great friends and family who are anxious to see me and will surround me with love and support, and a job that will keep me very busy - all of which I'm very grateful for. As I said....I'm almost there....