but i love him. it's not that easy to just walk away. i know because i have walked away from someone i loved before who was wrong for me. it's a hard thing to say, but i'd rather be with him and put up with the situation than be without him. even though i can't take any more... and yes i know i am contradicting myself
he is very close to and looks up to his father who quit drinking some 24 years ago (when my bf was born) and never touched a drop of drink EVER again. he can even watch his son drinking without being affected (same with his mom too although he is closer to his dad) perhaps i should talk to him about this. maybe he can knock some sense into his son. if his father did it then he could do it, you see? i just can't give up hope. not just yet.