Wonderful!!!!!!! Wow, you are very smart. Thanks, your thread helped me today!
And yes there is nothing special just Delusion & Fantasy. Reality sucks often but its reality, its manageable.
PS I broke up with an XABF 2+ years ago. He is the same or worse still drinking as hell. I would still be waiting for a miracle wasting all these wonderful days to be lived as I wish to live them, not as an empty shell of myself.