You guys are so amazing and awesome! Everyone has such good advice and is so supportive. It's nice not to feel like you alone in your problem. Thanks
Anyways yesterday I didn't have 1 craving. Last night it felt like a 1000 tons had been lifted off my chest. No more fear of getting pulled over, no more hiding empty alcohol containers no more fear of hurting my kids (physically and mentally), no more obsessing over where I am going to get my next drink and when my husband will leave for work so I can go to my hidden stash, no more embarrassing and stupid drunk dialing, no more horrible cravings that make me want to just jump off a bridge, no more being drunk in college and trying to hide it, and a million more things just all went away at once. I think that was the best feeling in the world. Also yesterday my depression went away for the fist time in years, maybe it had to do with alcohol, who knows?