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Only posted once asking some thoughts about AW. Read about the 12 steps and other recommended reading. Now another night of some beer or what ever, some problems she had during the day became totally blown out of proportion which I understand can be subjective. However, crying and throwing stuff around, repeating herself some many times I got fed up.

and then words. Finally told her fed up with her drinking. It's killing me and her. Said she got out one of my pistols and was going to blow her head off. Took gun and hid it.

I don't know how to handle this. tried to get her to go to physciatrist at a detox placeand she went once with me. then she went to AA once-not her. Then she went to a psycologist for awile-didn't work. Left her for three months once and got back together-that was three years ago I think. things gradually went back to now having to come home 5-6 nights a week with her pissy attitude because she's drinking.

I don't know why this is worth it. Problem now is she's is probably getting more suicidal (she threatened it once a number of years ago and that's when she went to the psycologist). I want her to get help but really can't see how to do it and then what is she going to do to herself if I do walk. Now I really don't want to stay regardless of what she does, I see no change in her and can't waste anymore of my agining years (I;m 59 and not looking forward to starting all over again this late in what should have been our looking forward to retiring soon).

Please, anyone have some suggestions on how to handle this problem (her leaning tendency toward suicide mostly). Once past that I know pretty much where I'm going.

thanks thanks