This too shall pass....I keep reminding myself of that everytime I *think* booze.
I drank for 30 years and recently got fired because of it. I was actually relieved as odd as that may sound...but at that point, my gig was up...it was over...I HAD to change and I did 42 dys ago.
I don't do moderation either...if I crack open a bottle I might as well kiss it goodbye. No such thing as just one drink.
I kept busy starting my grooming station (I groom dogs) and running around and doing things I had neglected -but sooner or later you are sitting alone with you and thoughts of what to do next. I find pistacchios to be a busy escape. You have to take each one and crack it before eating. LOL
I am doing AA and 6 weeks of rehab -if your company has some type of addiction help -take advantage of it.
But whatever you do, take it day by day...good luck!