I went through that, but I learned to change the "nevers"...I never have to wonder what I did the day/night before, I never have to deal with consequences I put off for "when I get clean" (I'm a recovering crack addict); I never have to look at the faces of my family and see the deep pain I was causing them; I never have to feel like a totally worthless human being again.
It took time to change the nevers, but it happens the longer we work our recovery
Hugs and prayers,
Amy