Amazing! To be able to ask for something from virtual strangers, and receive it with compassion and no judgement. I have tears of healing in my eyes!
I have been isolated for so long. I definately lost all perspective for a while. But I am getting it back. I know myself well enough to know it will be a while before I have the strength to leave. (plus getting money and staring a whole new life again )
But I'm feeling more and more confident that I will get there.
Also I will be getting out for a while each day now, as I start going to the gym today. And although, I'm under a gag order not to discuss anything with anyone ever, (small community, great risk of anything I say getting back to him) I am hopeful that maybe I could start confiding in my gym partner, as she does not know my AH (his persona) that well.
One step at a time! This thread came about because I have finally reached step 4 in the program. Now all I need is to find a sponsor of some sort!
Thanks for all the support! before you all I had no one!