(((Litehorse))) - I've often used the bat, not only for my codie stuff but for my addiction..just yesterday, as a matter of fact. I came here and read, talked to some people who are supportive and remind me of how far I've come (as have you), and the bat has been put away.
Like ((Chino)) once I get out of the funk, I look at it as a learning experience. Okay, I did this then...what would I do NOW if the same situation were to happen, knowing what I know?
You've made great strides, and I think most of us slip back into the "beating-ourself-up) but the more we work recovery, the more we get out of that feeling faster. You did great by reaching out here.
Remember the 3 C's, sweetie. Not to be cocky, but when I was using, no one could make me stop (except the law), and now that I'm clean, no one can make me use. It's all on me. Always has been.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy