my responsibilities
I am so upset at myself and accept responsibility for what I did and know it is not a big deal but just wanting to post here to let it go.
My son had a school concert yesterday that I was looking forward to attending and I think he was also. Unfortunately I completely forgot about it.
I am not going to make excuses and take full responsibility for forgetting but in a "normal" world would this have happened? Who is to say.
This just goes to show me my focus is still on AH and not on my own recovery. This weekend was weekend for son to be with AH and that creates so much tension for me leading up to it, I just don't function properly. I even called my son yesterday to make sure everything was ok and didn't have any remembrance that he needed to be at this activity.
When I saw my son today he remembered and looked sad that he missed but was ok. My AH was standing there when my son told me he remembered about it and he just kept talking to me about what was going on with him
I just feel so bad that my son probably spent the whole day yesterday sitting in front of the tube and AH sleeping. IMO participating in this concert would have been better for him and I am so disappointed in myself for not remembering.