I applaud you for deciding not to have children with an A. It must have been a hard choice to make.
Perhaps you can tell yourself that there are many women in the world who choose to become solo mothers because they'd rather parent alone than with an incompetent partner. After the heartache I went through during my pregnancy and after the birth of my daughter, I would like another opportunity to experience a happy pregnancy and birth...and if "the right guy" doesn't come along, I won't hesitate to get try insemination to get preggo and go it alone. I know it's not for everyone, but it *is* an option.