Originally Posted by
chicory 
This is going to be the hardest thing I will have even done yet. I dread it. I know that when he leaves, I will hit the floor face first and cry like I have never done. It is against my very being, to withdraw a roof and bed from someone who has nothing. but, I have no choice, if I want him to have a life. this is no life for him. it is sad, and horrible.
i feel like my heart is between two rocks, and being crushed.
Why are you already visualizing how much you will suffer?
I know if I go into a situation KNOWING it is going to be horrible, it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Imagine yourself as being strong, capable, taking care of both of you because he cannot see (yet) what needs to be done. Visualize THAT, instead of your helplessly collapsing on the floor in a flood of tears.