Thanks, Amerce
Today has been an especially bad day. Being back with my family is really wearing me down mentally and emotionally. There is so much drama going on here. Yet I don't have the strength or the means to leave. I back in school now trying to finally finish up my bachelor's degree. I'm unemployed and there seems to be no prospects. I feel like I will never get out of here. I'm starting to feel that kind of suicidal depression I haven't felt in years. It's all just unraveling and I have no one I can trust or speak to. I want to see a therapist but I have no means to pay. I have tried at least 6 times in the past to find a therapist, but none of them ever clicked with me. I just feel desperate and lost all the time. I've pushed all my friends away and most were never really true friends to begin with.
I'm just feeling very sorry for myself today and I can't seem to pull myself up.