I know this doesn't make you feel better about not having children...and I hope I'm not being insensitive but I would do anything to have avoided my children growing up the way they have, watching me be treated badly, them ignored, having their Father call me a F$%^&*^& C#@$ while I'm trying to hussle them out the door to the safety of my parents.... it was just SICK that I did that, ALLOWED that.
I will always have to have a relationship w/ my RAH because of my kids. I don't know what I want from him at this point but I can say that I don't want that for myself or my kids and refuse to accept it ever again.
You can walk away and know that you never have to deal w/ your A again.
I will always have to deal with him.
Whether I want to or not.
It sucks