And Hills I hope you're in good spirits again today!
Stick with it my friend, it'll get better over time and I'm a believer that if we want our sobriety bad enough - even if AA is not for us - given sufficient effort on our part we can find a method of recovery that suits our individual needs.
I think it's really cool that there is yourself, Dee, Really, TDC, and my good friend - none of you are using AA as your recovery method and that myself, Isaiah, and many others here at SR are a part of AA and yet we can all still get sober together and hopefully all find a way to be happy in sobriety!
I think that in itself speaks wonders about the capacity of the human spirit to achieve!