Thank you all!!
StarCat can you repeat that to me every hour on the hour pretty please!! I need to hear it. Really I do.
I remember when I felt like my HP had pushed me off the cliff when my EX lost his job and with it our housing. I had begged the landlord to give me an extra month to find housing as the EX and I were also separating and it was just me and all my pets about to be homeless and he refused. I was desperate and scared and didn't think I would make from moment to moment. Not to mention living with an active alcoholic at the time who was spiraling out of control.
I do drag my feet about making choices and I had hoped my dragging my feet in the past was how I was led up to this moment with a chance to own my own home. I've tried to not wait and I've been proactive in this and still I feel I've been shoved right off the cliff again.
I am trying to have faith that it is all as it should be. It is so hard see through the fear, though.
Thank you all for your kind words of support!
Alice